I'm tormenting myself at every step...What next? I'll turn into a devout believer? It's so tortuous not having control over life and death, sickness and health, well being and peace of mind...I need to get out of this sick cycle of punishment-and-reward...I can't enjoy/feel good about a fucking thing without being paralysed in fear about repurcussions...Yes, now let me be struck down by the lightning bolt, now that i have said it, but for godssake leave alone mine...This has got out of fucking control
i like annoying people. i am an ovo-lacto vegetarian feminist. i like woody allen films, mushrooms and dissecting popular cultural artifacts (which is just a posh way of saying i love to hate what other people like). but mostly i just complain.